Gang Life, Bullying, & Suicide Propel Xay Hill to Keep Pressing
With his auto-tune laden voice, large feature numbers, and heavy trap beats, Xay Hill made the best of his 2018. However, Hill went through his fair share of trials and tribulations to get to where he is today.
Hill has always been a huge T-Pain fan. Using the style in his own music, he’s had to deal with haters as well.
“People run away from this thing,” he explained. “I want to use it to my advantage. At first, people didn’t like it, but now I think people have fully adjusted to it.”
Don’t worry though, Xay doesn’t treat auto-tune as a crutch. The guy sings and plays piano as the music minister for his church, so he is a well-practiced musician. Sometimes, he will turn the auto-tune off “just to shock people.”
Turning off his auto-tune wasn’t the only way Xay shocked people. Back in his grade school years, Xay was living the life of a bullied kid. One day, Hill gave the bullies a run for their money.
“It started off one day talking about my shoes because I didn’t have money to get good shoes,” Hill shared. “[A bully] was rapping, and next thing you know, I freestyled him and burned him. I didn’t know I could rap. I saw girls I liked and people that didn’t like me supporting me.”
Hill gained a reputation after that moment. People would walk up to him and ask him to rap, and Hill turned his new-found gift into a ministry tool when he eventually rededicated himself to Christ.
Now, Hill is readying to drop the last installment of his three-part ‘Red Ranger’ Series. The extensive project tackles the demons Xay Hill has faced, from a child to now.
“Every Red Ranger in the Power Rangers Series is usually the last one to morph for a reason: because they have a broken past,” Hill stated.
He continued, “at age 11, I was in a gang because I lived on the rough side of Cleveland. My mom was working three jobs, riding buses, and stuff like that. I felt she had no protection. I was selling dope at a young age, all while still being a preacher’s kid and being in the church. I was messing around with multiple females, being a womanizer at a young age.”
All of this at the age of 11 is pretty scary. Through bullying and fear of judgment from the church, Hill lived in constant fear. So Red Ranger Pt. 1 tackles all of these themes and Hill’s emotion through it all.
Listen to Red Ranger Pt. 1 Below:
In Red Ranger Pt. 2, Hill has rededicated himself to Christ and has the goal of becoming a full-time CHH artist. However, Hill’s actions haunted him and doubt set in.
“I don’t feel like I could make it because I came with that side, there’s a lot of dirt I have done,” Hill revealed. “So [I was afraid] people would not respect me because of that. It got to the point where, at the end of the project, I sat there and said ‘I know God got me, I’m going to make it out of the county. Matter of fact, I’m going to celebrate and have people dance with me, we are going to celebrate together’.”
Listen to Red Ranger Pt. 2 Below:
While “everything seems OK” at the end of part two, Hill finds he has one more demon to defeat: himself.
“I faced suicide six times, the sixth time being a couple months ago,” he revealed. “It was finally me sitting in this division like ‘OK God, if you want me to move on a follow you and follow your footsteps, I’m going to have to defeat this last giant, ‘[to beat it].”
This demon he will share in Red Ranger Pt. 3., which is up for pre-order here. (It drops February 3rd.)
Even with the ‘Red Ranger’ Series almost complete and the big 2018 he had, Xay Hill is still going to grind his hardest. His goal is to become a full-time artist. Like a lot of artists, he juggles a day job along with creating music. But he believes if he keeps putting in the effort, he will reach his dream.
“I have this in mind; if I’m working this hard already, just for it to be a hobby, it has to turn into a job.”