Lawren has been quiet since the release of his album Get Your Change in March. however, he’s back with an extremely powerful spoken word piece “Trapped.” The “trapped” Lawren is speaking about here is “porn” and “lust.” And yes, while this territory is well worn, for Lawren, it almost cost him everything.
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Around six years ago, Lawren was serving in pastoral ministry in his church, but he was keeping a secret that many share.
“I’m still susceptible to sin. I’m struggling with sexual sin at this point.”
His addiction to pornography manifested into his personal life with his wife, then girlfriend. They then received the news that she was pregnant. As you can imagine, someone in ministry having a baby out of wedlock would not go well.
“Unfortunately, what happened, happened, and God still showed His grace in my life with my largest rebellion,” he said. “I’m a Christian now serving God completely but yet I have this little entrance that I allowed Satan to come into my life. I really wasn’t disciplined, I really wanted to hold on to this idol, and through all that, God still showed me grace by allowing me to have a daughter through rebellion. I hid so much from people, I lied, I played it, the typical hypocritical thing. Through all that, I was still able to really rejoice.”
There was an instant where things could have gone very dark. Lawren is preaching a sermon about this period in his life on Sunday. He relates himself to David and his secret affair with Bathsheba.
“David was trying to cover his tracks by getting Uriah killed. I did the same thing,” he explained. “I’ve never shared this before…I was so afraid of the shame of losing my position at the church, that the first thing I thought of was maybe an abortion was the way to go. That’s how far sin will drive you down. That’s how far you’ll go.”
For Lawren, abortion is detestable and a definite no, but now he was in those shoes and his thoughts changed.
“Granted when we first found out we were having a baby, it really wasn’t the greatest thing. I already knew that I was going to lose my job. It was really stressful, but the day she was born I already knew that it was a lesson that God already taught me and I knew that he was going to use my testimony for good,” he revealed.
The core point that he is driving home in his sermon Sunday is that people have to be allowed to fail and be transparent. If not, they hide it and it becomes worse.
“As believers, we need to be there for each other…We are stronger together,” he said. “I want people to understand that this is a dangerous path to go down. David lost his child due to the consequences. There is a parallel there and thankfully I kept mine.”
His daughter is now five-years-old today.
Lawren documents more of this story on the title track of his album Pieces.
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